Last Sunday I decided to go to the park. I had been reading at a Starbucks and had a meeting in just over an hour, so I decided to get some fresh air and go for a walk. I used to like going to the park to read or go on the swings, but I hadn’t done any of that in a long time.
As I was walking I began to think about my footsteps and where I’m headed in life. So much of my life has been about deciding whose path I would follow. It was about mimicking people that I respected and becoming like them. There’s nothing wrong with following the good example of another person, but there’s a difference between copying someone else’s decisions and listening to where God is leading you.
On that quiet, gray afternoon walk I realized that I haven’t been listening to where God is leading me as much as I have been trying to decide my own path. I wanted to order my own footsteps and make decisions about who I am and what I’m known for. I wanted to copy someone else’s path instead of listening to where God was directing me. I wanted to let someone else do the hard work of listening for God and following him.
In Psalm 119:129-133 it says,
Your testimonies are wonderful; therefore my soul keeps them. The unfolding of your words gives light; it imparts understanding to the simple. I open my mouth and pant, because I long for your commandments. Turn to me and be gracious to me, as is your way with those who love your name. Keep steady my steps according to your promise, and let no iniquity get dominion over me.
I want God to keep my steps steady and protect me from the sin of laziness and idol worship. God wants us to follow the example of others, but he has plans for us individually. It’s easy to forget that God loves me as an individual and has plans for me. I need to remember to listen to God’s words so that I can see the path he has laid out before me and follow him, not mimic others.