Helpless

Last night my wife and I celebrated our one year anniversary. We had to celebrate a little early because Monday, the actual day of our anniversary, is packed full of work and school for the two of us. We walked around the Victoria Gardens in Rancho Cucamonga to look at phones (for me) and puppies (for her). After that we ate dinner at Slater’s 50/50 and then saw Pacific Rim. As my wife was falling asleep she asked if I would sing our song for her. This is our song:



The song was originally written by Elvis, but Ingrid Michaelson’s version better captured the message of the song for us. As her voice rises and falls alongside the piano there is a tension of helplessness that I was deeply reminded of last night. It isn’t just that I love my wife; it’s that as time goes on I continue to feel completely helpless in falling more and more in love with her. As I sang that song in our apartment with the hum of our box fan providing a keyless humming I felt overwhelmed to the point of tears by the sense that I feel endlessly bound to my wife.

Jesus seems to be endlessly falling in love with us too. Paul reminds Timothy that “if we died with him, we shall also live with him. If we endure, we shall also reign with him. If we deny him, he will also deny us. If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot deny himself.” That last part always gets to me. If we are faithful he will remain faithful because he cannot deny himself. That’s how connected we are to Jesus.

I’m thankful to say that I too feel this way. Like in my marriage, I don’t always show my love at the right times or in the right ways, but I feel it deep in my gut. I love God and I feel compelled to be near him, even in times when he feels distant or when I have sinned. The Father has bound himself to us through Christ and the Spirit enables us to feel that bond and respond in love and obedience so that we too can repeat the refrain that we simply cannot help falling in love with God. He is too good, too precious, too glorious, to wonderful, and too overwhelming to not feel helplessly in love with him.

Ron
Christ's Church